Soooo, I’ve been M.I.A. for a while but I’ve been very good 🙂 I’ve started back at work and I’m now earning some much needed moolah for my travels to Europe next year.
25 Days of Blogging Christmas Challenge
I found this on this blog and I figured that I’ve never done anything like this, so I’ll give it a go!
Christmas is my favourite time of the year, without a doubt. I love EVERYTHING about Christmas. EVERYTHING.
Let’s get started!
Day 1: Your favourite Christmas movie
Now I’ve really had to think about this one. What immediately comes to mind is Love Actually, probably because I saw an ad for it on the tele earlier and thought that I should really buy that. But then I thought back to my childhood and remembered a movie (albeit a really, really short movie) that I was in love with from a very young age – The Snowman.
If you haven’t watched it then you should.
Day 2: Your 2012 Christmas list
A Kindle. I need one. Like, medically. I need one for my travels!!
Day 3: When/how did you learn that Santa wasn’t real?
Day 4: Favourite Christmas Song
Would have to either be ‘Do they know it’s Christmas’…
Or ‘Fairytale of New York’…
(By the way, I was asking Dad what my favourite Christmas song is. I said, “You know that Christmas song by those people” and he knew what I was talking about! WUT?)
Day 5: Best gift you’ve ever received
Wow, I really don’t know! I’ve always been so spoilt when it comes to Christmas that I’ve received so many things that I am so grateful for. I guess it would have to be my first iPod nano. It was the first slim iPod nano. I was so obsessed with it 😛
Day 6: Your favourite tree ornament
I don’t actually have one! I love all of our ornaments! Last year when Dad and I were in England, we wandered into Harrods and walked out with a few overpriced tree ornaments. They are pretty cool! But I can’t say that I have a favourite…
Answer any of the questions I have answered in the comments below! I would love to see what you have to say 🙂
I feel passionately about helping people struggling with eating disorders and anxiety. I have had a lot of experience with both and it was a long and hard struggle.
I have to deal with my anxiety on a day-to-day basis and some days are easier than others. I’ve talked about my anxiety struggle here and the journey hasn’t been easy. There are days when I feel completely relaxed and others where I feel so on edge that I feel like I’m gonna pass out or throw up. But seriously, I don’t think I would be able to control my anxiety as well as I do these days without the help of medication.
Medication isn’t for everyone but for a long time, I thought the same thing about myself. I believed that taking anti-depressants would make a numb and would change who I am. I believed they would completely change me or make me gain weight or make me ill. It wasn’t until my anxiety started to affect my life that I decided it was time to take that step.
Medication isn’t the be all and end all, however. Once you start taking it, it doesn’t mean you have to take it forever. Medication is something to help you get on your feet. I remember talking to my mum about going on medication and she gave me some great advice. She said,
“If you had high blood pressure, you would take medication to bring i down, wouldn’t you? It’s just like that. There is something that isn’t right medically and medication is a way to help with that.”
She is completely right! If you need that little bit of help to be able to control your anxiety (or depression) then why not?
I’ve been taking citalopram for over a year now and I think it’s one of the best choices I’ve ever made. When I decided to start with medication, I was so crippled with anxiety that just stepping out of my house was a struggle. I couldn’t do things that scared me and it was affecting my recovery. Because I was anxious all the time, I really struggled to eat a sufficient amount, started losing my hair, and worst of all, I was losing weight. I did NOT want the anxiety to make it harder to recover.
Thankfully now, I have been able to reach a more than healthy weight, do things that scare me and basically live my life.
Medication isn’t for everyone but it has definitely worked for me.
What are your thoughts on medication? Have you ever taken medication to help you with anxiety/depression? If so, did it work for you?
But I’m back!!!
If you follow me on Twitter then you’ll know why I’ve been M.I.A. I’ve been completing my last and final year at university and I am sooooo relieved that it’s over. This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. I’m gonna say it now: post-grad is hard. But I did it! Well, actually we’ll have to wait until I get my grades, but I know in my heart of hearts that I did my best and that’s all I can do. Some days my best doesn’t feel good enough but that’s a result of me comparing myself to others, which I need to. Stop. Doing.
Anyway, how are you all? I don’t know what to do with myself now! As soon as I got home from my exam today I started throwing out notes I didn’t need (that wouldn’t be useful to me at any point in the future) and started dusting. Who the hell does that? Surely, I should be going out and killing brain cells with drink but nooooo. I’m not one to drink these days so I choose to…clean…instead. I’m weird.
This is just a short post to let you know that I am back and I will be posting more regularly from now on.
What is your favourite thing to do after you’ve finished exams?
Thank you for your awesome comments on my last post. Ugh, the Fitspiration movement just gets me so heated. It’s a disgusting movement and it makes me sad to see people following it and thinking that they’re being healthy. Oh well, it’s not my life. Not anymore.
For the past week, I’ve been housesitting for one of my brothers friends. When he asked me a month ago if I’d be interested I kind of freaked out and immediately thought, NO! But you know what? I scared myself and accepted to do it. I’ve never been flatting or relied on myself for food so I thought it would be a good little experiment for me to see how I handled it. Oh, and having a good friend to stay with me is always fun 😛
But when I got here, I realised that I had forgotten something really important…
My kitchen scales.
*Gasp* Katy, what are you doing with kitchen scales? Why do you need to be measuring your food? Just gimme a second to explain, please.
At the beginning of my recovery, I needed to start measuring food so that I didn’t use too little amounts. That was over two years ago. But because I’ve just never thought about giving them up, I just…haven’t done it.
Now that I’m all of sudden faced to eat food without measuring it first, it kind of brought about some anxiety for me. I never even thought I had a problem with this but then again I had never given myself the opportunity to face this.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t measure everything. Just things like oats, rice, cereal, etc. But to be honest, I kind of need to measure my oats and rice so that I get the right liquid to dry ratio. Or is that just an excuse? I can’t tell!
It’s been a week now without my scales and I’m not too bothered, to be honest. Like I said, at first it made me anxious but now I don’t really care. It’s all about intuitive eating right? Scales shouldn’t be determining how much our bodies needs. Serving sizes on packets should not be determining how much we should be eating. Our bodies know how much we should be eating. They will tell us when we’re hungry and they will tell us when we’re fall. Sometimes we will eat when we’re not hungry and not eat enough when we are hungry. It’s all about practice. Learning how to eat intuitively isn’t easy but it’s incredibly liberating.
I think I need to find some space in our cupboards at home for yet another disordered measuring implement.
Have you ever struggled with giving up your measuring scales? Have you ever even struggled with this? Tips?