Monthly Archives: February 2013
Well, well, well…here I am writing another post! I’m soooo onto it.
The last two days have been pretty crap. I’ve been off work for two days with a crippling cold and sleeping through the night was out of the question. Thankfully, I woke up this morning feeling sooo much better! My stomach actually feels relatively normal. The cold symptoms are still there, but that’s nothing that cold medicine can’t deal with.
I have pretty much been living off of fruit toast, butter, cheese toasties, and porridge and I’ve barely moved. There have been no veggies in sight.
When I used to feel sick when I was in the depths of my disorder, I would struggle to rest and eat without going for a walk or run. I would feel guilty for looking after myself!
Thankfully, I no longer feel like that. I do not feel guilty for feeding myself and resting my body. That’s what your body needs when you’re not feeling 100%. It has made me realise how important it is to look after yourself. I no longer worry about how much I’m eating or how little exercise I’m doing. I know that if I had restricted myself and gone for a work, I would have felt even worse for it. Exercise is supposed to make us feel good. If you know you won’t feel good by the end of it, then don’t do it. It’s as “easy” as that.
On a less sickening note, I have finally booked flights to go over to the UK! I am so excited. I now feel very poor, however. The trouble with living at the bottom of the world is that when you want to travel to the far north, it will cost you a pretty penny. My flights were relatively cheap considering what other airlines were charging, but I know it was money well spent.
I’m very excited to finally meet some good friends that I’ve met through the blog world and twitter. I consider these people to be close friends even though I’ve never met them. How funny is that?
Bring on the 23rd of June 😀
Do you feel guilty for not exercising or eating properly when you feel sick?
Are you travelling anywhere exciting this year?? 🙂
Man, I suck. I haven’t written a blog post since last year! I suck. Oh well, I’m sure you’ll get over it. I have.
I’m back because I need to talk about something that I feel very strongly about. And that is…
For years I’ve battled with my body. I starved it, pushed it through painful workouts, picked it – I basically treated my body like crap.
It isn’t until now that I realise how much my body has been through and yet it’s still working for me!
I bring this up because we always have those thoughts in our minds that we are never thin enough or our stomachs aren’t flat enough or we can’t run as fast or far as someone else.
I still get thoughts these days telling me that I’m ugly and that I should eat sugary foods because they’ll make me fat and even uglier. Yes, I still have these thoughts, but I don’t act on them. I just put everything into perspective.
My body has been through so much because of me. It could have given up on me if it wanted. My body could have broken bones or left me injured for the rest of my life. But it fought for me. It fought against my efforts to torture it and has healed thanks to putting weight on and continuing to eat healthily. My mind may still not be completely recovered, but my body is.
After so long of depriving my body of nutrients, rest and sugar (oh sugar, how I missed you!), my body wants it, so I eat it. I no longer want to deprive my body of anything, whether that be food, exercise, water, rest or sleep. I’m still making up for 7 years of deprivation. Eventually, I may no longer want sugar all the time, but right now I’m happy making up for lost time, and I feel good about it!
I am thankful for my body. I am thankful for everything it’s done for me. It has endured so much and I feel so bad about that. But what I have learnt from this awful experience is that our bodies are precious and they are our only vessels to explore this world. You only have one. Do not take advantage of it. Be kind and loving. Give it rest, movement and food. Even though you may not like how it looks, look at yourself in the mirror and thank your body for being able to pull through the worst of your illness. And most importantly…
Have you had a similar experience with your body?