Monthly Archives: November 2012
I feel passionately about helping people struggling with eating disorders and anxiety. I have had a lot of experience with both and it was a long and hard struggle.
I have to deal with my anxiety on a day-to-day basis and some days are easier than others. I’ve talked about my anxiety struggle here and the journey hasn’t been easy. There are days when I feel completely relaxed and others where I feel so on edge that I feel like I’m gonna pass out or throw up. But seriously, I don’t think I would be able to control my anxiety as well as I do these days without the help of medication.
Medication isn’t for everyone but for a long time, I thought the same thing about myself. I believed that taking anti-depressants would make a numb and would change who I am. I believed they would completely change me or make me gain weight or make me ill. It wasn’t until my anxiety started to affect my life that I decided it was time to take that step.
Medication isn’t the be all and end all, however. Once you start taking it, it doesn’t mean you have to take it forever. Medication is something to help you get on your feet. I remember talking to my mum about going on medication and she gave me some great advice. She said,
“If you had high blood pressure, you would take medication to bring i down, wouldn’t you? It’s just like that. There is something that isn’t right medically and medication is a way to help with that.”
She is completely right! If you need that little bit of help to be able to control your anxiety (or depression) then why not?
I’ve been taking citalopram for over a year now and I think it’s one of the best choices I’ve ever made. When I decided to start with medication, I was so crippled with anxiety that just stepping out of my house was a struggle. I couldn’t do things that scared me and it was affecting my recovery. Because I was anxious all the time, I really struggled to eat a sufficient amount, started losing my hair, and worst of all, I was losing weight. I did NOT want the anxiety to make it harder to recover.
Thankfully now, I have been able to reach a more than healthy weight, do things that scare me and basically live my life.
Medication isn’t for everyone but it has definitely worked for me.
What are your thoughts on medication? Have you ever taken medication to help you with anxiety/depression? If so, did it work for you?
But I’m back!!!
If you follow me on Twitter then you’ll know why I’ve been M.I.A. I’ve been completing my last and final year at university and I am sooooo relieved that it’s over. This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. I’m gonna say it now: post-grad is hard. But I did it! Well, actually we’ll have to wait until I get my grades, but I know in my heart of hearts that I did my best and that’s all I can do. Some days my best doesn’t feel good enough but that’s a result of me comparing myself to others, which I need to. Stop. Doing.
Anyway, how are you all? I don’t know what to do with myself now! As soon as I got home from my exam today I started throwing out notes I didn’t need (that wouldn’t be useful to me at any point in the future) and started dusting. Who the hell does that? Surely, I should be going out and killing brain cells with drink but nooooo. I’m not one to drink these days so I choose to…clean…instead. I’m weird.
This is just a short post to let you know that I am back and I will be posting more regularly from now on.
What is your favourite thing to do after you’ve finished exams?